Think Jody, think.

About me
Jody Anne Rueda Alarva. Yes, Jody Anne. It's Johdee not Judy. Foodie at heart. Is an act-first-bang-your-head-on-the-table-what-the-heck-did-you-just-do person. Has boundary issues. Borderline neurotic. Has no self control. Lives for the moment. Easily influenced. Loves to change but scared OF change. Embarrassingly forgetful. Has just been found.



Put on a happy face

Today, my mask is happy. The plastered-on grin only falters when I stop to think. My smile drops when I glance at windows. Life is going all around me, and I am a apathetic face in the crowd.

This is what I figure. When I put on a happy face, the feeling follows. And it does for a while. I am blanketed with warmth and sunshine as I step into the light. But as the shadows fall, I’m back to the person I was, empty and wanting.

This mask is thin, and imperfect. The eyes are holes and mine peek out of them, staring into far off spaces.

As i see clearer still the mask slips off, revealing the broken, wasted shell that I have become.

The mirror is my foe, as i face the truth. It shatters as I hit it, not caring for that which I see.

Lying down tired with the shards of glass, I pick up the mask and put on a happy face.


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