I often find myself on the fence. Especially when it comes to my friends. The present is no different. Sadly, what was once a tightly knit group has now formed two separate groups, and i find myself trying to split myself in half hanging out with both of them.
It’s no issue really, people with different interests form different circles. These two circles intermingle sometimes but generally exist apart. Sometimes I wish i lived in a world with only concentric circles.
Naive as I am I’ve tried to be part of both. Both groups i like equally, and both groups having different interests I can both relate to.
Now I just find myself running from one side to the other trying to find a way to understand why I’m killing myself doing it.
But the answer is simple.
I love my friends. That’s it.
This isn’t complaining, this is just a longing for a utopia where people can all get along.
I try to pick a side, but I find myself missing the snarkiness of one group or the silliness of the other.
I hope I won’t find myself someday not belonging to any group.
Till then I’ll be running.