The human heart was—and remains—a mystery to me. But I’m learning. I have to. —Anthony Bourdain

  • The new normal

    This is Chester. He turns 10 in a month. When we met him, he was a baby at a pet store, and he cost ₱280 pesos (around $4.8 usd). This was in 2014. Since then he has been the constant of my life. He’s outlived 3 female bonded pairs (Sasha, Chunky, Chibi RIP). He’s had… Read more

  • June 4th, 2024

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  • Since March of 2020, I’ve repeated the same phrase over and over, usually when I’m trying to justify a choice that’s not smart, practical, or necessarily good. LIFE IS SHORT. PEOPLE DIE ALL THE TIME. It’s becoming more and more accurate the more time passes. We keep losing people right and left. There’s wars, genocides,… Read more

  • This week

    I’ve just felt like this. I know it’s my brain lying to me. I know it’s going to pass. It doesn’t make it easier when I’m in it. Self awareness is quite different from self actualization. It’ll get better, but for now, I will keep on keeping on. Read more

  • Today I learned a lesson

    Today the universe sent me a reminder. As I was walking back to my place, I saw some of the neighborhood cats. I proceeded to open a sachet of wet food I had in my pocket and offered it to the cats. As one of them was pregnant and we had not made friends before,… Read more

  • We miss you

    You’re still here. Read more

  • A decade ago

    We were all together. We miss you every single day Jaye. Read more

  • This is how I feel right now

    Out of shape, can’t remember what I used to look like, and who I was. -J Read more