Forever

Last year, on November 16, 2013, I was supposed to close on forever. Happily ever after. Starting a new life.

Simply put, that didn’t happen. Things go awry, people change, the worst happens, and your plans come crashing down on your ears.

That doesn’t mean I no longer believe in forever. On the contrary, I’m a bigger believer of it now. That the strength it took to not just choose the path that was set, and believe that things will be better and there will be a different future for me, is still there, urging me on. Move forward. Be better.

These thoughts pervade my mind as I prepare to participate in a friend’s step toward forever as a bridesmaid.

What went wrong? I would like to leave that private. While my life is an open book, this is not just my life that’s being opened, so let’s not invite the internet to too much of it.

My life now is far from perfect. I’m starting over, at 27 I really don’t know what I’m doing. 28 in a month. I still don’t have the answers to the future, but for now, I’m stopping living in the past.

Do you know what you want for your future?