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Life is short, week 38 of 52
Status update: Recent developments are only being able to sleep in alternate “evenings” so my zombie days are more frequent. Antihistamine 3x last week for bad hives, but still kicking. Moments of the week: 1. Not getting the brunt of a category 5 typhoon. A lot of my countrymen suffered a lot, and actual heroes died saving people from floods. My family and myself were safe. We were actually even able to have a good meal outside, the first in a really long time. I’m very grateful for that. 2. Just having conversations. Humans are social animals and this pandemic has changed how we relate to each other. Just being…
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Life is short, week 37 of 52
Status update: Hives but no asthma. So better? Fatigued as heck all the time, and need to carve time out to row. I know I’m missing weeks and should clean up but I have zero desire to do that right now. Short moments of the week: 1. Overspending at the grocery store. So I may have bought enough for a cheese plate for 6, and have not started, and randomly a Kewpie smoke mayo that I put on all the fried things, and thinned out my wallet considerably, but it’s great. With all the things going on — I can barely enjoy making a meal, let alone make one. When…
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Life is short, week 34 of 52
Status update: Two days of incredibly uncomfortable hearburn had me on my knees. Had me trying to figure out if giving up my start of work coffee and eventual caffeine withdrawal migraines is a bigger pain in the butt. Isn’t growing up awful? Moments of the week: 1. Spontaneous outings that actually happen. Sunday Korean barbecue decided on 3 hours before and it actually happened. A great meal, then hanging out a friend’s place, then spontaneous massage appointments. Nothing like a super chill semi social day with people that have no expectations of who I can be besides myself. And laughing our asses off the whole time. 2. Chester’s 8th…
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Life is short, week 33 of 52
Status report: Finished my nebules, and I don’t know if I’m hallucinating the cigarette smoke going into the vents. Life moments of the week: 1. Chester being back at the vet, diagnosed with stress. I get it Chester, I miss her too. So much so this week, when I realized how much you follow me around now. She was such a big personality, and she loved on both of us so well, that we’re both feeling the hole she left. It’ll get better, I promise. 2. A wake up call. There’s nothing like a jarring realization to reset you. This past week, I got a punch in the gut of…
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Life is short, week 32 of 52
Status update: Once a week nebulizing, but an almost everyday relationship with my inhaler. Only one migraine for the week which is a win — but also upping my caffeine intake by a lot with yakult jasmine iced teas. Eh. We do what we can. Moments of the week: 1. New routines with Cheester. He has been extra clingy with Chibi being gone and has been “going to work” and then “heading back” every day. We may have overdone it with the treats but we live, we learn. 2. Timing. Cheester had mild stasis on a Friday — but also Doc Ferds, our favorite vet was in town out of…
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Life is short, week 31 of 52
Status report: Hives 7 days a week, and now nebulizing my asthma — and got my first inhaler. I need to get my shit together. Or get more sleep. One or the other. Moments of the week: 1. Learning a new skill. A couple friends came over with a full kit and caboodle and spent most of Saturday teaching me and my sister a new skill — putting on our own makeup. Honestly — was much less stressful than I thought. Can I remake the look without close supervision? That’s yet to be proven. But I did order a mirror because there is a shortage of it in this house.…
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29. Miss you Josh.
Our friend, amazing person, all around special guy Josh Johnson would’ve been 29 this August 10th. Had a little too much of everything in your honor my friend. Miss ka na namin. Ingat ka diyan.
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Life is short, week 30 of 52
Status report: I think I’ve developed GERD because now I get woken up by the feeling of nausea. Anxiety hives are twice a day now. I live on a diet of sugar and caffeine. Life is short moments from the past week: 1. Cheester being such a good coworker. We’ve been attached at the hip, which makes it hard to actually go out, but it’s like he’s taken it upon himself to be my emotional support animal. And because I’ve had a really overwhelming few weeks, it’s really made a difference. 2. Learning a lot. It’s a lot. I’m always the first person to admit I’m not an expert, but…