Status report: Hives are back and angrier than ever. Finding a better way to keep myself active so I can sleep better is also a little difficult, but not impossible. Consistency really is something I need to work on, especially with all these medications.
The bright spots of the previous week:
1. Finding The Clumsy Lass. I find solace in poetry, especially in quieter days, when all I feel is the compulsion to yell out because no one is listening. This particular piece really spoke to me:
So the next time
my heart gets drunk on adrenaline
just by looking into someone’s eyes,
I’d rather not fall.
I’d choose to walk,
in a pace not too slow
that I miss every chance I get,
and not too fast
that I forget to even think.
I have a tendency to want to run towards things I like with no thoughts of self preservation, or, when hurt, completely shut down.
2. Planning things. After a long wait, good news about long shots turned our way, and now, good things await. There’s a lot to pin down, but in good ways.
Songs of the week:
Miles Apart by Nick Wilson
Favorite Crime by Olivia Rodrigo
Happier Than Ever by Billie Eilish