• Gratitude,  Jodythinks

    Things I’m grateful for, week 1/52

    I will try and keep this up, and not be too dramatic about it. I am approaching this year with a ton of caution and hope. So here are a few things I’m grateful for the week for: 1. This guy, with the Goku hair. 2. The buns getting salad greens, kale and basil and random treats and them being happy about it. 3. Finally finding matchy comfortable cotton pajamas (and on sale). 4. Fresh sheets on the bed. What are you grateful for?

  • Gratitude,  Jodythinks,  Love/Life,  Thanks

    You light up my life

    I have been wanting to get one of these since we saw them more than 5 years ago. Thank goodness for small favors (and the randomness of shopee) that we’re now able to have this on the car, it feels a bit more like Christmas. This year is going to be so different in how we celebrate the holiday, and I use the term celebrate loosely. While we understand how lucky we are to have all members of the family still here this year (unlike millions of other families), it’s a significantly smaller table, and an incredibly quiet one as well. I have made my feelings about Christmas pretty clear. I love…

  • Gratitude,  Jodythinks,  Love/Life,  Thanks

    Midyear Thoughts

    Lately I’ve been thinking about how my year has been going. It has not been the smoothest, and definitely there have been some curveballs that I’m still figuring out how to deal with.  Suffice to say there’s no shortage of whining and crying about how things have not gone my way. I keep hearing myself saying that I miss my grandmother and how my knees are still not being helpful in my quest to be a better exerciser. The year has not been perfect. However, there have been some bright spots. I am putting these down “on paper” so I can remind myself the next time I’m on the edge…

  • Gratitude,  Jodythinks,  Love/Life

    525,600 minutes later

    This time last year, I was probably nodding off to sleep in the room my sister and I had at Montemar, savoring and digesting the heavy early dinner we had because the kitchen closed at 10 pm. I was on melatonin to try and sleep more than 2 hours at night time and failing, waking up in the middle of the night and dreading 32. It just seemed so unremarkable, so dreary, to be moving to my mid 30s in the middle of picking up the pieces of my heart, after an inevitable break. It was depressing, and even if my sister was a massive help, the quietness of the…

  • Gratitude,  Love/Life

    Hello, summer

    It’s been a rocky few days for Metro Manila. A water shortage has crippled thousands and has made the heat that has come in even more difficult. It’s hard to be thankful for beautiful things when you feel grimy and thirsty and don’t know when your next bath is. So far my solutions are cold drinks and ice cream (still dreaming of the Cremia ice creams from Osaka) and water tumblers full of icy water. We’ve put out all our water containers and now alarming amount of reusable bottles we didn’t know we had and filled them with water for drinking and the rest of our pails and drums with…

  • Gratitude,  Jodythinks,  Love/Life

    You lucky SOB

    I catch myself complaining a lot, and 2018 was not a year that I was very positive about a lot of things. When life threw me for a loop, I bitched and moaned about it. A lot. And I can recognize venting and mourning loss, but I also have to acknowledge what a lucky son of a Barbie (I won’t curse at my mother today) I am. In 2018: I got to be there a lot more for what turned out to be our Nanay’s last year.  I spent a lot of times with my friends, and made a few new ones. I finally got to deal with my health,…

  • Gratitude,  Jodythinks,  Love/Life

    Merry Christmas Nanay

    Dear Nanay, We were all home and got to spend Christmas together (except for Ann but you know she’s committed to the thing). We ate a bunch of things. Ninong taught most of us a game. The fathers drank whiskey, the kids (is it still kids if no one is younger than 21?) drank bottles of sweet wine. You were still part of the raffle, and actually got to the end, but lost out to Joannaman. I bet if you did win you’d give it to us anyway like the year you did win the top prize. Almost all the kids give gifts now so it took a good 15…

  • Gratitude,  Jodythinks,  Love/Life

    Saying goodbye

    Another month, another wake. This time though, I am not the one offering my condolences but one of the people being offered theirs, because our family lost our Nanay. She wasn’t young at 89. She had already outlived all other grandparents by at least 5 years. It wasn’t a surprise, as she had been in the hospital for around a month, and we had known when they found a mass that it wasn’t going to be long. We couldn’t go for treatment because of her age and already existing health issues, and we had resigned to just making her feel comfortable. We say it’s a blessing to have her out…

  • Cheese,  Gratitude,  Jodythinks,  Love/Life,  Thanks

    Can I keep you?

    Lately I’ve been thinking about loss. With my sister and a friend going to wakes one day after the other, another terrible number up on this year’s wake count, I cannot help but think of who we can keep. Honestly, I am quite lucky, my parents are both here and generally healthy (I say generally because they are not perfectly there but that’s another conversation entirely). I got time with both grandmothers and one grandfather. My mom’s siblings are all thriving. Cousins are intact and can be direct messaged or sent embarassing videos at any time. Friends who’ve stayed are those who are amazing (and even saw me through my…

  • Gratitude,  Love/Life

    Hug your fathers

    Yesterday, two more people in my circle lost their dads. TWO MORE. 2018 has been such a rollercoaster of emotions but I think seeing people I love lose their fathers has been the most heart wrenching of them all. Too many funerals, too many tears shed, too many Christmases that will be forever changed now that they’re gone. I had a draft penned, a letter about a fat shaming person in my circle but it all seems so trivial now. Today, and for the rest of the week, I will mourn with my friends of their loss. So if you still have a dad, hug them today. I never hug…