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Life is short, week 26 of 52
Status update: Migraines and insomnia. Advil close to running out, and Tylenol has stopped working for headaches. Is the insomnia causing the migraines or are the migraines causing the insomnia? Life is short moments of the week: 1. Chipped teeth getting fixed. Teeth are expensive, and now even more so. I broke two front teeth and was semi-hillbilly like for a day. It was nice seeing the dentist I’ve seen since I was in the single digits. Couple decades later and we’ve seen her get married, have two kids, and now have one graduate college. 2. Routine checkups turning into health scares. Mom is great about regular checkups, dad not…
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Life is short, week 6 of 52
Status report: 6 bad migraine days out of 7, but successfully refilled with – full box of of ibuprofen. If only I was wrecking my liver with more fun things. 1. Dad’s birthday. Excessive amounts of food and snark, even if I had to sleep early for work. I love birthdays and making a big deal out of them. My dad is no such person for it — secretly he likes the celebrations though. 2. Losing a colleague. I hate that this is the second in 4 months. I hate that it was so sudden. I hate that he had so much potential and that the team had so much…
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What I’m grateful for, week 48 of 52
1. The beginning of independence. Sounds ridiculous for someone who’s 35 years old, but also in a very traditional, conservative country and family. I am being vague on purpose, but independence means a lot to me — especially what it took to get there. 2. Great support. I have leaned on a lot of people, and continue to lean on still. It still takes a village to survive this (gestures at everything), and I’m glad my tribe is solid. 3. The healing power of music. I’ve tossed, turned, had incredibly vivid sad dreams this week, and when I get up — the only people awake are across the world and…
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I think you should listen to Florence and the Machine’s Rabbit Heart today
Anyone who’s met me knows I am a crazy rabbit lady (my friend Marian Jo has mocked up collages even) but this is a whole different thing. I have been working by myself a lot, and when you work nights, the times are even quieter, and even though I use a friend’s music around 60% of the time while working, when I need to fill the quiet, I listen to songs I can sing to. I have been listening to Florence and the Machine’s Rabbit Heart (Raise it Up) lately. The lyrics are apt for a lot of things I’ve been thinking about: Life is so different since March that…
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I think you should listen to Kanye West’s Runaway tonight
I’ve always had a soft spot for vintage Kanye. More than I care to admit now that he’s gone full batshit crazy. Or I guess that’s the brand now? And this song just feels right for a Saturday night after a long week of having to deal with too much. His lyrics sometimes really hit you in the heart, and before, the first few verses were the favorite. Sharing toasts for the jerkoffs and the scumbags just feel right for a night out. But maybe tonight these just feel a little bit more apt: Never was much of a romantic, I could never take the intimacy. And I know I…
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I think you should listen to Ezra Furman’s “Every Feeling” today
Maybe I’ve just been watching too much Sex Education on Netflix (where this song is from), or maybe I just need a break from the same 50 songs I’ve been listening to for the past six weeks, but this song really hit me. I’m gonna feel every feeling in the book tonightFuck the hurt, fuck the painFuck the panic, fuck the hate I wanna feel every feeling in the book tonightAnd only love, only love and happiness will remain And I’m not trying to sound different with all the cuss words that I don’t really use on this thing, but I think these lyrics are quite apt. I haven’t had time to process anything…
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I think you should listen to Lany’s ILYSB (Stripped) today
Simply because it’s damn sexy. And I don’t say that about a lot of new songs since I am an oldie that likes songs that even my parents were too young to like. But this song is just breathy and simple and I can’t get enough of it. Here are a few lines from the song: Ain’t never felt this way Can’t get enough so stay with me It’s not like we got big plans Let’s drive around town holding hands Mad warm when you get close…to me Slow dance these summer nights Our disco ball’s my kitchen light And even if it sounds sexy the lyrics are pretty innocent.…
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I think you should listen to Imagine Dragons’ “Bad Liar†today
The thing about hanging out with a big group in one room is that you get introduced to new music. I am admittedly in a music rut since I don’t listen to the radio and I get very particular with making my own playlists. But I digress (again). I had listened to Bad Liar by Imagine Dragons about 4 times a day for 4 days and just liking the melody. I got the chance to really listen to the lyrics and once I did I enjoyed it so much more. Here are a few lines to the song: So look me in the eyes, tell me what you seePerfect paradise,…
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I think you should listen to Bastille’s and Marshmello’s Happier today
One of my biggest regrets in life was when I wiped my 7 year old ipod nano (which still works now) of the songs I curated since 2007. Until now I can’t find some of the songs I had on there that meant a lot. Reason being was that I wanted to start over and make new memories with new songs, turns out, I no longer have the time, patience or resources to curate something to that effect (around 639 songs at the time of wiping). I like very old songs, and those who probably have people sick of them by now. My excuse is that I don’t really listen…
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I think you should listen to Fra Lippo Lippi’s “Later†today
I know it’s sad, and I actually started my day putting up my Christmas tree to Christmas carols. However, seeing Pier Sorenson on CNN Philippines sing it by himself really resonated with me. If you’ve never heard it, or it’s been years since you thought about it, please listen to it here. Its lyrics are simple. Here is a sample of a few lines: How could you ask for more With an innocent smile Trusting me to stay How could you close the door And leave me here Supposing I’m okay How could you break down my disguise And uncover my fears How could you look into my eyes Ignoring…
