Month: June 2009

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So, about last night…

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Yesterday I was a jerk.

A full blown, who gives a crap, total jerk.

I guess I was tired. Of being politically correct. Of making sure everyone had it great. Of putting up with things I really didn’t want to.

I jerked it up.

It was so out of character. For me, who usually wants everything and everyone to be fine, for everything to be smooth.

I put myself first.
I did what I wanted to do.
I didn’t care about the consequences of what I did.

No, I didn’t do anything totally radical.
I didn’t commit any crimes, no irreperable damage.

I just was different.

And it felt good.

For several hours I acted my age. 23 and with no cares in the world. No drama of the week.

I felt free. I felt like a huge weight was off my shoulders.

I am so close to being like this 24/7.

But I don’t wanna be a jerk forever. 🙂

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Harder, better, faster, stronger

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I am learning, that we all have to have thick hides to survive in this world. Too often, we the sheltered believe that people will treat us fairly, and will pat us on the back if things go badly.

That may be true of 10% of the population, but for the rest, well…

People are harsh, bitter and cynical. Too often when they see a vulnerability, they’ll take advantage of it. Hurt, make it worse.

Yes, I am looking at the real world. Coddling is not going to do anyone any good. It’s just gonna leave them sensitive, unprepared and perpetually pissed at the way things work.

And yes, I am accounting for your loved ones. I believe in the concept of cruel to be kind. No one should be constantly lulled into a sense of security and well-being, coz well, in the real world, there’s always something awry and missing. To have the people around you have you in a constant state of delusion of “the-world-is-nice-rainbow-and-butterflies-on-every-corner” will just leave you more hurt when the truth hits you.

The bullshit, the criticism, the insults hurled at you by well-meaning individuals will only help you for they will give you a tougher hide.

They’ve certainly helping me develop a thicker skin (Haha I’m a fattie i knooow) and i’m slowly learning to not be so sensitive to the things that usually bother me coz hey, annoyance at every little thing and holding on to hurt, is only give me headaches and wrinkles. And if i do get bothered, will that help fix the annoyance/minor problem?

No.

Ok, I’m losing my original point.

Here it is.

Toughen up kid. Coz no one is gonna walk on eggshells for you forever.

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Coke smiles all around

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Finally, after six months of fail (see here), we finally got our coke smile shirts. After liters upon liters of the stuff. After coaxing all the eateries we frequent for bottlecaps. After getting my hyperacidity back after a couple of years, we finally got our coke shirts.

We refused to buy the fake ones for sale we saw at various places, stuck to our guns and waited patiently.

Thanks to Karlo for telling Sarah and me about the Greenwich promo.

Thanks to Abi, Vins, Pao, Kiko, Rc for eating the five meals for the two shirts. 🙂

You can’t see it, but I have the biggest grin under the shirt.

(in picture from left: me, karlo, sarah)

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The short game

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Sometimes, I’m envious of people who have 5 year plans, long term goals. I am a person who lives for the moment. No plans for the future, I don’t even have a life path yet. Going where life takes me is basically what I do. I guess I’m a whole lotta Pinoy in that sense of the bahala na thinking.

In that sense I am all about the short game. What’ll make me happy in the moment, I’m there. No thinking of the long term effects, no second thoughts of the pain that it’ll cause in the long run. I live in the now. Trying to justify this with the adage that says that “Life is just a series of token moments” or something like that.

I should be better at planning. Better at the choosing. There is only so much I can chalk up to the foolhardiness of youth, and my friends are getting better at reminding me of the mistakes I’ve made this year.

So you, dear reader, are you all about the life track? Or are you a short-game-what-will-make-me-happy-right-now person like me?