And I have this dream where I’m screamin’ underwater
While my friends are wavin’ from the shore
And I don’t need you to tell me what that means
I don’t believe in that stuff anymore
I need to get my head out of bad outcomes. It’s not healthy, and I can’t live in the worst case scenario. But it’s difficult not to when unthinkable things have happened when you think it was just another day. Unplanned phone calls terrify me, and the first thought that comes to me is always “Who died?” because there were at some points, and those you didn’t prepare for. So let me be wrong. Let this be scarring from past phone calls and something I can work through with my therapist. -J
